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Sunday, 18 May 2008

  • Untitled

    I hadn't realized that the previous entry was in January. Somehow it felt much longer. Maybe it's just me and my inability to keep track of anything. Lately, I've been quite uninspired, busy, and too indifferent to compose something worthy to be published even in my own mind, nevertheless here. So I hadn't. It could be the senioritis talking or it could be the chronic lack of happiness striking its best at my heart. Whatever this thing might be, it has left me in a world of lethargy. In addition all of that, my vision and constant headaches catalyze a different genre of the increasingly, steady decline for my state of mind.

    Sorrows are often accompanied by productivity in my life. Stress brings about mindless scrubbing, reorganizing, cleaning and clearing. I've long thought about redecorating my room. So you see, the lack of inspiration in life balances out by the inspiration to create. That's when art takes over, I suppose. The pen is my escape. The melodies, lines of poetry, and countless visions of what could be, eventually become my sanctuary to relieve all my angst and overwhelming energy. However, that's only 50% of peace. The other half requires 100% of happiness.

Tuesday, 08 January 2008

  • Not Your Usual Cramps

    This morning I woke up with cramps. I thought eh...it's just PMS, no biggie. Wrong! I had my pants to my knees until the contractions hit. Maybe sitting down on the toilet will help. Maybe all I have to do is poo. Wrong again! No poo graced me with its presence. I could barely stand on two legs. I almost saw my life flash before my eyes. What the hell was wrong with me? I rarely get PMS and never has it been this bad!!! So I walked out of the bathroom with my jeans still in the same position, my upper body tilted forward, and my face in agonizing pain. My mother got really scared and ran to me. If I wasn't so stubborn or if it had gotten worse after a few hours, I think I would've opted to go to the hospital. I was able to straighten out my body, but only in bed with a great price. I had to endure more contractions. This was like a non-baby miracle of life process. My mother had to help me take off my pants, lol!!! I felt like a big baby. After rubbing that green medicated oil all over my abdominal region and downing two Tylenol pills, I had to try to sleep to ride over the pain, but I was wide awake for a long, long time. Stupid cramps made me miss molecular bio! Throughout the day I felt this constant cramping and fortunately enough the contractions lessened, which allowed me to get out of bed. The sporadic episodes of shocking contractions were really super poopey. I hope tomorrow is a better day. I hate how weak my body is, and the only compensation is how good it looks in the nude.

Tuesday, 01 January 2008

  • Excess Water

    Brandi Carlile - The Story
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    New Year's Eve...I'm here with my family. It's nice but even so it doesn't help me from feeling completely alone. My head is mixed with lyrics of sad songs and all the tragic stories ever witnessed. Looks like I've got a new favorite song to add to the list. It touched me in its first attempt and hasn't failed since. When listening to this song, my eyes become a never-ending waterfall and I am streamed with emotions so much that it's this overwhelming suffocation, and all I could and should do is release them. My family watches the TV intently and I'm in my own little world with one track on repeat to welcome the new year. This song....this song makes me wanna pick up a bottle of booze, slouch down on the floor and drink life away...dance with my arms wide open only to collapse later and fall into a dark abyss and sleep for a very long time. But I the moment I open my eyes, reality slaps me out of my own madness. Yay! Sappiness aside, listen to this song. It's reallyyyyy gooooood! Don't be a pansy like me and cry every time you do though.

    HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I hope yours are much, much more happier

Wednesday, 05 December 2007

Monday, 03 December 2007

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    • Name: Thuy
    • Country: United States
    • State: California
    • Metro: Riverside
    • Birthday: 3/17/1985
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 8/17/2003

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  • FargoKraft
    :O neither did I. Is this a subscribed feature?
  • thuyp_317
    i didn't know this thing existed...